yesturday I finaly bought the book of "The Ultimate Book Of Shadows For The New Generation, Solitary Witch. I been reading this books for a time now and today I deicide to take him with me. Now that I have a Clear mind & soul I can start practicing new things and see the beauty of the world. Many people don't paid attention to the things or simple things that surround us.

In this few years music has given me hope and tranquility I don't think I could survive in this world full of hate or peple who want to hurt you for no reason. The reason I hear music was to be apart from the world of selfish humans was death metal and black metal. I always will love the type of music but the one I should be thankful was the goth genre. Band like within Temptation, lacuna coil, Nightwish and many other but these are the most important. They change me and show me the beauty of love and the world. Thanks to them I get rid off most of the hate that have dwell within me not all but there always shall be good and evil.

I like Poetry well I always been a romantic person but I like it more now. All the pain I has felt and I keep it inside I express it in my private notebook. I don't have someone who I can lean on and trust.

Finally music has open door for me Now I like more to read and make poetry, To draw and see drawing and paintings, To see the beautyful desings of the tress and every diferent shape, everything I see is beautiful. I want to draw, paint, play diferent intruments.

MY destiny was always ment to be like this. I realize it now everything was already here but I could not see it. I will embrace it and let my soul wander free through this wolrd. I miss you grandma one day I will be with you again. They say you make poeple suffer but I think you had great soul. I will never forget you and regret the day that I could not see you for the last time. I shall visit your grave but I don't know where is it if I ask my father well you now how he is.. You always help and even in these lonely and happy days. I will learn it but I will never make someone suffer. I will start with the white but I always have more interest in the black and other ancient religions and eras. Specially the middles Ages.

My soul shall enter the realm of witchcraft and learn his misteries and fufill my destiny. Connect my soul to mother earth and hear the winds whispering my name. I yearn to feel them close to me, lend me your knowlage to begin this long journey. let my dreams become reality and reality my dreams and don't know where I going but I sure is not heaven well I don't want to go there unless they answer me....